LOST DRAFT - .....Again.

So. Funny thing I realised.

I'm pretty good at imitating. Usually if I listen to something, I can imitate it. It takes more practice and concentration if I'm going off script (such as, I'm applying the imitation to words of my own rather than the original quotes) but still. Of course, I'm a girl, so there's always that drawback - but I'm pretty good at imitating.

In imitating voice, I often imitate mannerisms. This comes down more to my habit of profiling and charactersing rather than imitating - but the end result is the same. I study someone, and I pick up their habits. give me a little while, and I could probably copy anyone.

(Funny, the one thing I think I'm good at is useless and I'm probably rubbish at.... Figures.)

But I wasn't feeling well today. Normal event - I usually just think of something else. I'm good at distractions.

Well......  I've been writing a single character lately. I don't know why, probably has to do with the fact that I obsess until I solve things, and it's easier to ignore reality when writing fiction.

But I wasn't feeling well today, and then suddenly I felt fine. Much more caustic and sarcastic than normal perhaps, but fine.

....and then I realised that the mental voice and persona of the character I was writing had come to front.

Thankfully I edit most of my speech or translate it to other languages.

And was working alone.

But that was just...weird! Certainly, I've shifted to other nationalities - but not other personalities!

I recently got a film camera at a thrift store. Circa 1972 Miranda Sensorex II with 50mm lens and no I have no idea what I just said - it was on the label.

I love film cameras. I had a Pentax - still have it somewhere I suppose.... With a good roll of black and white film in it too! - but that has disappeared somewhere..... Annoying. But there's something about film - probably just it's relation to Vintage eras. Although the method of plates and acordians and chemicals is indubiably intruiging, film is better.

However, digital has it's points. First? You can SEE it immediately. And cheaply. Usually there's a feature where you can just look at the pictures you just took, and adjust lighting or setting as needed. Second? There's also auto-sensors! The Sensorex EE did have auto meters, but not MC. Figures. I get the completely manual one.

If I don't know anything about computers or phones, I know less about cameras. ISO? F stop? Mirrors? Light seals? WHAT IN THE WORLD IS THIS WHY CAN'T I JUST POINT AND CLICK??

And! Don't forget the film! I can't just delete and retake pictures. I won't know for at LEAST a month how the pictures turn out. So by then I won't remember what I did wrong.

So I need to learn all I can about cameras and taking pictures, because I'm going to have to recognise the scene BEFORE I take the picture so I can adjust for it.

Someone explain to me what happened to my mind and my sanity.... Because this is a nightmare waiting to happen. Or maybe it is happening?

And what is it with film cameras?? "I should really change the film. Let's figure out how to open this thing now.... OH DARN IT THERE WAS FILM IN THE BLOODY CAMERA ALREADY!!!" Yeah, I've ruined three rolls of film like that now. Annoying, very.

And I also found my Yashica MG-1.

I have too many film cameras, no film, and no idea what I'm doing.

Surprise!!